pretties only: too sad

Hello people, its a beautiful day.

I woke up from my sweet nap at sound of a deathly thunder and now its just drizzling. how convenient.

I have been going to college less and less every month and it was the best lazy decision of my life because look now I have more time to do lame shit like writing blogs and watching at least two movies daily. cute.

As a kid, I used to often wonder about why humans were created or what happens once we die. As an adult though, I think thoughts like those are stupid and you should just live your goddamn life instead of wondering about what came before or after. After all, you only live once.

If you know me, you'll know how I am a big advocate on how being nice is pointless and being a piece of shit is the much better alternative. Obviously, no person is like that by default. you have to go through a particularly shitty experience to develop such a mindset. In my case, in 5th grade I had this friend who was a pathological liar. It was to the point where she would lie about the pettiest things like what she brought for tiffin. i honestly don't get people like them. Its understandable when everyone around you is judgy because there's the innate fear of getting bullied. But trust me, I would be the last person to do that. I was just a sweet lidul kid and she had no reason to be lying to me all the time. Thanks to her though, I've got trust issues now. manar I freaking hated u and our short but felt way too long friendship.

I did have a 'bully' awakening in 6th grade but we don't talk about that haha plus it died down as soon as soon as I graduated the year so yea

the point of the storytime was; don't judge me for being an asshole!!!!!! I cant help it think of it as a sorts of coping mechanism

If I was nice to a person and they act like a shitpiece in return, i will develop malicious feelings and start despising them. but if I was rude, i would stay neutral (do u get me, i hope yes)

I often get told I have no empathy but its not something i plan to work on so please stop being a broken recorder I'm sure you've got better things to do like go water your succulent or sumn