20.05

about my day

recently, I've learned the power of documentation, or rather, it's preciousness.

it's a bright day. I wake up to the sound of obi gagging right beside me. very typical cat-mom fashion, I have to say. I'm annoyed yet I can't fall back asleep so it's an early morning for me. although 8 isn't very early. my deepest apologies to the true early birds, I haven't seen routine for a while now.

at this very moment, he is on my bed, aggressively cleaning or, licking would be the right word. cat cleaning asmr. very enticing. he's cozily placed and attempting to nap on my bed now. a lovely distinguished gentlemen. shush. he has completely fallen asleep.

I have breakfast, made by the hands of a person I don't like very much. hence, it lacks the love you need for a meal to be fulfilling. regardless, i'm grateful and eat it to the best of my abilities. a little secret but I have trouble finishing my meals. maybe it's my gut that's a little f-ed up. 

every day, i set up little tasks for myself. today, I had to go through notes my friend had sent me. watch a movie, recommended by another friend. spend some time scrolling on one of those investing apps. make a short visit to my stardew farm and say hi to haley (my in-game lover). write on my blog. heh. solve sudoku and win rummikub. stare at obi and make atleast three videos of him sleeping. and um. that's it I guess. 

random thing that brings me joy is when there's cake or ice cream in the fridge. I don't have a strong urge to consume it but just knowing it's there for when I have my little craving outburst is sort of comforting.

sunlight, to me, is subjective. the only time I enjoy it is when I'm taking pictures and I want it to hit at the right angle. but when it's 2 in the afternoon and it's glaring inside my room? horrendous. I want it gone. ms. moon, may you grant us with your presence already? please? 

sometimes, I have flashbacks of terrible smells. hence, I burn the candle. the scent is 'laundry day' which smells exactly like fresh laundry and slightly floral. not my favorite but it's a nice, subtle scent.

although I don't do much throughout the day, atleast nothing mentally or physically taxing, I always end up sleeping at the same time. I'm done with dinner by 8 or 9. i prepare to sleep around 11, and then I'm in bed all cozied up. I don't fall aleep until a little past midnight, though.

I want to end with a small note; I don't believe in making wishes or hoping, because ultimately we are all doomed. but peopleeeeeee. are so important. every person in my life is a good person and they make me very happy! I find joy in random ways and you have certainly given me purpose in some way or the other. so thank you. that's all for the sappiness. I shall see you next time. 

thank you for reading.

-boogey, or saba, I like both.